During his stay in Zimmer’s apartment, Marco realizes that he has to start his life all over again.
How does he explain his breakdown after the death of uncle Victor?
After the death of his uncle Victor, Marco could not keep his balance. He gave up struggling against this shock (p. 85/ l. 44). He lost a very important person who had taken care for Marco after the death of his mother in his childhood. In all the years, they had a deep relationship and it was hard for Marco to be on his own.
He could not “accept things as they were” (p. 85/l. 49) and he had the opinion that it would be better to abandon himself “to the chaos” (p. 85/l. 46) which was his life he supposed.
What did he learn from this experience?
He learned that it would be better not to think that much of one’s own person and not to pity himself (p. 78).
He gave up early instead of struggling against the shock the death of uncle Victor was for him (p. 85).
In the future, Marco would “begin to accomplish something in the world” (p.78/ l. 30f.).
Marco wonders to change his life completely and to turn himself into a good, religious person (p. 78).
Another aspect which he mentions is that he enters a new period of life in which he do not want to regret anything he does later on.
